My Journey

There is that moment in life when you don't know anymore. If we ever knew.

 The direction to take escapes us, our certainties waver and the doubt opens under our feet like a bottomless pit. For me, it was almost three years ago.

 My life, synthetic. Between a great job, my family and my projects, you could say that everything was going well. At least that's what I thought. When the time came for my contract to end, after three years of giving my all, knowing that it would end at some point, I didn't see it coming... the emptiness, the anguish.

For someone like me who is full of projects, who has a global vision of what she wants and what direction to take, not knowing is a nightmare.

 Yet, I was not aware of my multi-potential. For me, my brain creating multiple ideas while not neglecting any aspect of each of my projects was simply a functioning of my own, so I can't tell you the panic. Nevertheless, I was not yet aware of the magnitude of the change to come.

My quest for answers generated by this state of panic and these fundamental questions led me to explore the depths of my being, both physical and inner. I had to go deep inside myself, to look for resources, for tools to create better for myself. These tools help me today, to better understand my inner self, unknown and misunderstood for a long time, and thus, to answer the primary questions about my identity, how to define it in order to create this life that I wanted to live fully, entirely.

 The keys to my journey were, among others, the following:

THE INNER JOURNEY

Curious as well as a travel enthusiast, I had never taken the time to travel within myself. I explored various methods, with more or less success. I trained myself, I learned to refocus, to recognize, follow and work with my intuition. Refocusing on myself, listening to myself and cutting off the flow of thoughts. Not easy, but as I went on my inner quest, I heard, I heard myself.

THE DISCOVERY

My inner journeys opened me to the discovery of my person. Very often we think we know with certainty who we are. But a turning point makes this certainty topple and we don't know how to listen to ourselves anymore, we are lost. This particular introspection first towards my roots has projected me far away, towards who I was, who I was and who I am. In short, the discovery of myself, by myself.

LEARNING

To go further, to understand. Another characteristic of my person, I wanted to learn. To know more about those methods that allow to understand oneself. Sometimes, I have documented myself, I have searched, I have met. People, concepts, stories. Other times, I welcomed, with surprise most of the time, this knowledge already in me. Buried knowledge, forgotten, that resurfaced when I was ready to accept it and use it for myself, for others. To learn and understand that the world is much more than a linear way of living.

A cycle of life that meets its past to open itself to its future.

THE FLIGHT

When I talk about flight, don't worry, I didn't grow wings on my back, but almost. To find oneself, or rather to find oneself again is a real deployment. When the roots of a tree are firmly planted, spreading infinitely to the center of the earth, the vagaries of time and seasons only seem to solidify it. This journey has allowed me to settle firmly, serenely on my roots, it has taught me the beings that I was, the beings that I could become, how to listen to myself, but especially the direction to take to be in this famous self-acceptance.